“There is a place. Like no place on Earth. A land full of wonder, mystery, and danger! Some say, to survive it: You need to be as mad as a hatter.” (Alice in Wonderland)

Mad as a hatter? People who worked in those Englsih hat factories in 18th and 19th centuries were exposed daily to trace amounts of metal, which accumulated in their bodies over time. Some workers suffered from some sorts of impairment caused by mercury poisoning. Therefore the phrase “Mad as a Hatter” became popular as a way to refer to someone who was perceived as insane.

Which unluckily I am not… Doing a media degree is not easy. Everything is about creativity. I daydream a lot and give myself very good idea to try out something; but I seldom work on it. I have several high school friends doing either media or fashion design at universities. They always laugh at me that I don’t believe impossible things. And they said there is no use trying only if I believe impossible things. They said it is a great pleasure to do what people out there say you cannot. I guess I should try stay as mad as a hatter… My mum once told me, “just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.” True, every cloud has a silver lining. No matter what I am goign through now, I will keep hold on my faith. It is doomed at the moment; but I believe a miracle is going to happen.

I am not Alice but I am in Wonderland. Either I take the blue pill, then the story ends and I wake up in my bed; believe whatever I want to believe. Or I take the red pill, I can probably stay  in wonderland and see how deep the rabbit hole goes. Ummm… I’ll choose the red.