As I was unable to make the week 3 ‘unlecture’, I asked my friend to record it for me through her iphone – ah technology these days and the dedication of my kind friend. It was different listening and not viewing the ‘unlecture’ – I don’t know if some of the things were effecting me more than usual or I was just frustarted I couldn’t see other people in the room and their reactions. Either way, something that I paid attention to was the word ‘structure’.

Now, the structure of VCE differs largely from the structure of Universities – for examples essays. We have been told multiple times to ‘forget what you know’. I am partly thank-ful for being told this, but then again, 13 years of my life was learning a system in which I should forget. Well, thats exaggerated. I was never very good at ‘structure’ so to speak – I could never structure a sentence the way they wanted or even the essay as a whole and I lost marks for this. But I strived and pushed myself to ‘stick to the system’ – even though it was so difficult. To get into the University I wanted, I had to comply with the criteria of VCE (which I don’t think is a very accurate way of testing as the whole thing is pretty artificial, but thats just me being cynical) but I did my best to be ‘most right’ within this system. Funny enough, I didn’t do to bad – which is now irrelevant as its now a number that represents nothing of me but the fact I worked hard once to make myself agreeable to a criteria. But during the time, I felt like my ATAR score would shape me and define me for who I was but it did quite the opposite – I found out my score, accepted it and moved on with my life.

Now, I like to say I am very passionate about writing so when we were told to make a blog I was pretty excited as I have always wanted to be able to report on what comes naturally to me – personal preference. Just by writing what comes naturally to me on this blog, I am really started to enjoy writing again like I once did (before VCE). I am not saying that I am great or can write a perfect story, but through having a place of expression I can work at my personal style and even editing skills – rereading my own writing and being able to advance it. I also love getting feedback from my other peers within the course. I love their brutal honesty and their appreciation of my opinion and even my style. Its very rewarding and in a way confidence building.

Like they say (who ever ‘they’ may be)- “you gotta have faith”.