My film has gone through some major rework, including the storyline itself. Script work. Filming. I deleted a LOT of footage which was a bit disheartening but as I edit my film it slowly has come together. I do have fears that it is a bit messy but that is just my own individual style. The topic of loneliness I am speaking about is so messy in my head it is so hard to keep it fluent in my film. My internal monologue is very sharp at the start, but it begins to lull into this tiring state.
Yesterday, October 13th, I suffered from such a bad day. I felt like I was suffocating. I invalidated it though. Why should I be feeling awful? It was sunny and warm. I spent majority of the day with my lovely boyfriend. Then took my nephew to the beach for the first time. It wasn’t until I was sitting on the beach alone where the waves from the ocean literally felt they were swallowing me whole. I broke down at home. I caught raw audio of my emotions as I thought it was a perfect addition to my film. It differs from the start of the film where it is very much like a “To Do” list.
The audio really struck me and felt fitting to include at the very start of my film. It is the unpredictable emotions like loneliness where you can’t control it, that set a huge tone in my film.
It is quite raw and I am nervous to show to the class but I hope they understand the notion of feeling alone when they view it.
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