did I participate?
What have I actually managed to achieve in relation to my participation plan for the last week?
- I completed the soundscape
- I did the Bogost reading
- I highlighted the readings and wrote notes on it
- I did not commence research for the essay
- I wrote 4 blog posts instead of 5
Overall, despite the fact that I did not manage to complete every single one of the five tasks I allocated for the week, I am actually quite happy with what I have achieved. Last year, I could have completed one of the tasks and been ok with that. I actually did a fair majority of the work I wanted to do, and yes I would like to sit here and say that I managed to complete it all but that is sometimes just not reality. I have other work to do, other commitments and one of my greatest abilities is to procrastinate.
I would like to come to a place where I set tasks and actually complete them. Honestly, who doesn’t want to be that person? Someone who does not procrastinate, who is organised and who uses their free time to contribute to the community instead of binge watching Girls. However, at this point, I am progressively working towards trying to improve myself in those areas and that is the best I can do. While I do not want to accept the fact that I am an epic procrastinator (as in some ways my acceptance almost enables me) I still need to be honest with myself.
My mindset needs to be a combination of optimism and understanding of actuality.