During the presentation of my idea to the class, it was quite clear to me (and most likely the class, Robin and the guests) that my film idea needed refining. I wasn’t sure if many members of the class responded to my idea, and while I couldn’t care less about that, I realised that I myself didn’t have the desire to follow through with it. It was a very disappointing moment. I wanted to make something that spawned from my mind, but to me, there was no point going with it if it was just mediocre.

After having a few days to get over the disappointment, I realised that I wasn’t putting enough effort into my work. My discipline needed improvement. Why? It could have been a few reasons. I was just coming out of a period of escape, I had just moved out, and I typically struggle to dedicate myself to something that provides me with little to no fulfilment. It just wasn’t a good time. But that’s lazy. I hate excuses.

On the following Monday, I found myself in (somewhat) of a negotiation between about 6 of us in class. We all felt strongly about Alex’s and Alaine’s respective projects, and tried to split into core groups. Everyone was hesitant to decide; was it a matter of manners? I made an impulsive decision and announced to everyone that I would like to work with Alaine because it was the most interesting idea that I heard during the pitches. Chynnae also joined, and the three of us felt satisfied with a small core group.

After working out the roles, pretty much all of the studio session was dedicated to developing the idea. Alaine wanted the film to be split into 5 vignettes, or “moments” as we now call them, related by match-cuts, symbols and the idea of “the other” (something that to this day we are still exploring). Sam also joined the group and wanted to contribute to the camerawork.