I have a confession to make….

Please, bare with me.

I.hate.this.blog.

My embarrassing first year ramblings shall forever haunt me here, and I always seem to be uploading new posts when I haven’t got the time to properly format them. I am a perfectionist, and this blog is far from perfect. However, I do understand the necessity of them for both our tutor’s sake and for ourselves as we delve into the media world in this ever progressing online field. I always put off posting on this blog, in subconscious hope that it will just disappear or magically format itself with pretty fonts and pastel colours- this method is yet to prove successful for me so for now I must succumb.

I don’t like writing things here because I still feel the need to physically hand write things down in order to absorb any lesson from them. I am so used to glossing over articles online that I now prefer a tangible copy I can highlight and write on to my heart’s content. Because I keep up with yee olde schoole method of paper and pen (how archaic, I know!), I certainly make things harder for myself, especially when it comes to blogging however I honestly feel the most efficient way for me to learn anything is to jot it out in a notebook. Ever since using laptop computers became the norm (around year 10 for me in high school) I have noticed a significant downfall in not just the quality of my handwriting, but my actual connection with my work. I now have a much shorter attention span and find myself only reading clickbait articles as they are formatted for the kind of vegetable that I have become. It is only recently that I have gotten myself back into reading novels and this rediscovery has awakened in me a new sense of appreciation for the written word (as in literally written). As a visual learner, I like to write and cross out, draw pictures and arrows, highlight and sub-note and generally just make the most of a page to figure something out, which is a lot harder to do in a blog post.

Whenever I am writing on here, I just want to get it done as quickly as possible and almost never proofread what I write. The joy has been taken out of writing for me, however I do get glimmers of hope when I can sit still and focus long enough to write a coherent story. I hope this studio will help me in my quest to take my time with my writing and not treat it like the much dreaded blog post we are so often hassled for. I want to be able to create worlds just as intriguing as the ones that captivated me when I first started reading. Stories have always been a big part of my life and of who I am, and I want to be able to write my own to share with the world.

My resolve to this problem is to stop complaining and get on with it. No more excuses. I have put this side of me in the background of process and format for so long that I feel I am forgetting it. It is time to bring it back!

Wish me luck!