GreenBedroom

As i reluctantly write this post i can think about nothing else then how i would rather be baking in the brisbane sunny or dancing on the GC.

I’ve spent the last week in QLD for uni games and it was fkn fantastic full of fun, memories, dramas and joys ! I didnt play because i went up woth monash even though i go to RMIT so that was a bit of a bummer standing on the sideline watching the girls touch each other 😉 not what you think touch rugby was the sport i managed up there. For a week i forgot about basically everything other than having fun and getting pissed drunk. Now its over, ive returned to work and started again on uni work and im suffering from a serious case of PUGD (post uni games depression). I cant wait until uni is over so i can get back to that fun but until then i will continue to wallow in melancholy and hope i dont fail any subjects.

Networked media encompasses so much !! So much of what we create, use, read, discover, delete (try to) is all entangled in a giant web of what is “networked media” and it grows exponentially every second.

* Still trying to understand it

In the last unlecture adrian spoke about games as being the largest entertainment industry in the world which surprised me as i thought music would’ve been. With that being said one of the most anticipated games was coincidently released a few days later. Yes, the long awaited GTA V from Rockstar games and boy has it come along way since those brick like moving things on PS1. Now im no “gamer” but you dont need to know one to realize how fucking fantastic this game is and why its now a billion dollar empire. And GTA for sure has a narrative, a violent, ill

egal and entertaining one. In fact the narrative is one of the great features of the game with a comprehensive storyline and clips throughout that if missed would leave gaps in your knowledge about the game and missions. But yet theres still that nagging notion of not winning stories.. but completing them and this is the premises of the game because throughout all the GTA games that i play i dont quite recall seeing the word Win/Won on the screen or myself saying that. The words were mostly completed,pass or clocked. That is the reality of most modern day games (which are more like movies), its about completed, playing out the narrative and not necessarily winning.

So halfway through reading the Murphie and Potts reading i released i had read it somewhere .. In history and tech. Wow we have a cross over of material and therefore the answer oh how relevant “this shit” is was somewhat justified. Anyone the reading in a sense was very vague on the definitions of both technology and culture. And rightly so i feel. There are multiple definitions and angles to what they are whether it be an artistic or mechanical way. But one thing is for sure both technology and culture have evolved. Then then argument of technodeterminism and symptomatic comes into play. Does technology solely change society or does society influence technology. For me neither, they work in tandem … they must? Surely one can not exist without the other.

Im being serious

So this is probably gonna be the most random yet honest post that ive put up. And look its not going to be as coherent or as literate as to the one im referencing and thats a flaw of mine but oh well who gives a fuck its a blog and i dont have a way with words. And ill probably go off topic multiple times.
Anywho, about an hour ago i was alerted by text by a friend, yes friend that i had my blog linked too. My first reaction was surprise then apprehensive cause i know well sort of know this persons tendencies. So i jumped on and had a read. I wont lie, i was a little concerned at the start but well now ive ended up here and thats a good thing. His post was both saddening yet funny at the same time.
I remember back when he told me some personal problems that were going on, we were at ABC having $4 pizzas and oddly enough i cant remember what i had but im fairly certain he had a BBQ chicken pizza (i may be wrong) and yes its weird that recall things like that but forgotten why i’ve started writing this blog. i hadnt known him for too long but there was something about him.. i’d say damaged and i hope this doesnt offend you but i was intrigued and well it was sort of obvious. Please corret me if im wrong. I read your journal and intrigued turned into fear… not of him but it was fear. Yes um look im sorry because i was mostly like in the “im so sorry” field speaking and thats because im socially and emotionally inept.
I apologize for not having kept in regular contact or even asked about how the situation has been going and really i have no excuse for it. Its the way i am.. i get lazy,selfish, i drop off and i know that i said we would catch up and maybe when you texted that was your way of saying i want to talk. And dont worry we will catch up ill make it happen eventually. And its not because of pity or because you wrote that post (partially) its because i actually want to.
Alot of what you wrote really resonates with me I’m a bit of a split personality sort of person. Most people know me as Myyen the outgoing loud one that gets drunk alot and is always the last to go home. And then theres the other me, easily frustrated, short tempered and sometimes destructive. Im weird in my own rights too, i love to be around people to feel less alone but i really dont have any close friends bar probably one and im thankful for her. Its odd because as much as i like to be around people i love to be by myself more. Thats when my thoughts wonder and take me from reality.
hahaah and yes you do over think things quite abit but i do too so dont worry ! And youre also painstakingly emotional. trust me overthnking gets me to dark places very quick and its bad for you so try not to do it. But im glad that youre not depressed nor are you ending your life sorry to be dramatic because well youre my friend. As much as we havent spoken lately you still are. And i wont say i love you awks cause well im very cynical of that word and theres very few people that i feel like i physically love in this world if any. I dont even really love myself and thats an issue of its own.
I really am confused about this whole blog ad what in the actual fuck im trying to say so ill dot point a few things thats its probably centred around:
-sorry
-i hate phone calls and awkward face to face convos because i judge and get annoyed so text is probably the best way if you need to talk.. or well blogs seem to work
-you are my friend
-you are too hard on yourself
At the beginning of this year we recorded ourselves saying one word
Your word was discombobulated ( i didnt even know what that meant ) but its so indicative of you. Nad in a way we are all confused some people just hide it better. its sort of how i feel right now to be truthful.
My word was searching… im always searching because well I’m never quite satisfied and frankly it means that im constantly on the move on the look out for something which is good because i hate being static. Im always seeking someone or something but mostly someone. ive found a few things and this is one of them. Ive found that i see alot of myself in others it takes others to realize things i didnt in myself before Ive found a friend who has in a way not to be cliche that changed my life in the most minute yet significant way so thank you.Its made me open up and write this something i never thought id do and i well feel slightly better. Not that i was sad or anything it just feel well at ease. And yes some people and i hope none will read this and think shes fucked up or feel sad but thats fine but dont. Because i hate sympathising cause im shit at it and when its for me i hate it twice as much. Im content with who i am this is me, I’m embarrassed but not ashamed. And as i said before im selfish as you can see because this was suppose to be a post about a friend but its revolved around me.
But yeah i wont ask you if youre ok ( i might accidently ) instead ill ask you how you are?
You are my friend and im grateful for it. If you need to talk then text me 🙂 ahah dont do anything stupid (highly unlikely)
And take me on one of those crazy night adventures that you go on i seriously love that stuff. Lastly let people in… but less publicly more privately though ( you can be abit too open).
Thats all have a good night. Much love like.
xox M

Well, Well im now heading into week 8 so technically a little past mid semester but just to look back on whats been so far.

Positives
– i started off soo well! doing all the readings blah blah. i was on it
-ive learnt how to blog ! yay
-ive made it half way though !
-read many interesting things about networked media and media in general

Negatives
-ive tapered off
-i actually dont enjoy this subject that much
-not sure if i will pass…

Overall ? looking at 50/50 right now.

Im going to talk about Barabasi’s 3 point about the continual and rapid growth of the web. Every single day it is expnading exponentially, the next twitter or facebook is ready to be found. But does it come to a point where basically everything on the web is a slightly different version of something that is already existing. This ties into hist and techs when it comes to remediation. Surely what ever you may find on the internet exist in another form of format else where tucked away of the web ready to be found and explored. The web is the place to find different copies of other things. For me im just curious to how much virtual space the web can take up before well it reaches its limit (of that exist) This post alone when i click publish will add a another string to the ever growing realm of networked media just like my other post did

I swear i was taking notes in the lecture but i cant seem to find the file and so im just gonna wing this one cause i have like the memory of a goldfish. Okiee so the take away idea or point was something along the lines of not being able to read an authors mind completely. Which is quite valid because when a text is analysed we regularly use phrases like blah blahs point is or blah blah is trying to say but wrong its what you think blah blah is saying? do you understand what im saying ?? well technically no probably not just to prove my point LOL. Well i guess in that case texts are interpretations, “instructions” all most for how an author wants or tries to shape the way you are consume the medium. You cannot simply through reading and exploring a text enter the mind and thoughts of its author. You can interpret different versions of it however.

This is a post about food and how much i actually eat.. Its actually quite staggering the amount of food i consume but not only how much i eat but how much i eat out ! every week i eat out at least say about 3 times? the past week lets see i had grill’d like twice, i had lunch at some nice place in the city where my friend was like “all you do is eat, all your snap chats are of food” .. awks. Well too damn bad because i love foood! more than any mother fucking thing on this planet so excuse me while i go consume that massive tub of ice cream in the freezer. I live to eat ! but id also eat to live so that i may continue to eat ! And working at a chocolate store doesnt help the cause but damn i tell you what eating out makes you poor !! oh well. FOOD xoxo

this is a post “about” networked media. Last week we had the mid-semester break and so there were no classes… no network lectures or tutes… how disappointing.