To tackle this task I wanted to create a self portrait that represented what state of mind I was in during this point of my life. And what was this state of mind?

During my life leading up to uni I have felt this sense of being lost. Lost, in that I have been trying to work out what I want to do with my life. Lost, in figuring out who I want to be as a person. Lost, in the way that the freedom I am experiencing is something that is new to me. The images, sounds, and videos I have created/recorded are meant to depict this mindset. Likewise I wanted to create media material that represented me in terms of the things that I enjoy doing.The series of images are intended to establish this sense of detachment from who I want to become in the future and what I’m going to do about it in the NOW.

I also wanted to establish my sense of frustration that came along with exploring what I really wanted to pursue in my life. The videos both preserved this similar idea through the clip of me spinning whilst also establishing my realisation through the clip of water.  Like water, I need to just go with the flow, be adaptable to change and not constrain me self. I need to see the light at the end of the tunnel and realise that this is a journey, like water I am only constrained by the boundaries I place on my self.

The sound recording relates to things that are personal in my life, such as my brothers school singing at assembly or beatboxing, something that I do constantly to simply entertain myself. The text is something I wrote, sentences that reflected my aspiration to gain some composure and not place such high expectations on myself.

 

 

THAT TIME OF YOUR LIFE

What am I doing with my life. Sitting here, staring lifelessly into this computer screen. Have patience dude! Don’t rush at life, know your talents and be confident! Things will just fall into place. But you have to make them happen. Don’t sit and wait around for someone to lift you up from the ground. Believe and be authentic. Act on things and voice your opinion. Your voice is the speaker and your heart, mind and soul is the music, let the music play, without interruption, without lag. Turn it up and be… be you!

Reflection from Lucas James on Vimeo.

Spinning from Lucas James on Vimeo.