Following speaking with Robin yesterday, I feel that it is significant to note the  amount of self learning this course has helped me realize.

My practice, what I enjoy and what I find noteworthy – reflecting on scenes, looking at other students work and reflecting on it all has provided me with a greater understanding of what I leaves a lasting impression on me and the themes and techniques that I enjoy and want to explore further.

• scenes that have been analyzed – and just bringing that consciousness of camera coverage (and then decoupage) to my film watching practice
• working with actors, what it is to act and the practice of being on screen
• shot movement, shot construction and shot perspective are all elements that I have come to have a greater understanding of through reflection

Filmmaking is an exploration. I have come to enjoy it more and more. I am not so scared of the camera, whilst I still find the concept of a shoot stressful and tremendously overwhelming, it is to a lesser extent then I did before I had to start shooting/directing/producing pieces myself. The more I read, learn and study, the more I understand that filmmaking is about an exploration of vision (maybe this is self centered – but the expression of that vision also helps inform the realization of my vision and my perspective and understanding of the greater world).

What I do and the way I think is different to other people. (This is a Jess Junor life-lesson that has taken, in my opinion, way too long to learn) Making and developing concepts and ANY kind of creative material – but especially filmmkaing is an awesome way to lean more about the way others interpret the world and the Process of filmmaking and editing, and perhaps even more so, then we suspect we learn in the art of viewing or projecting films.

The act of filming and recording LIFE can be destructive (to the finer moments of life). Recreating those moments is not as authentic. I am torn in wondering about whether I love the highly constructive  and controlled world of Kubrick over the more whimsical and guerilla style work of Godard on the streets of Paris. Real people and Real Life will always send me over the edge. But there needs to exist a level of authenticity in what they’re doing.
My challenge is to work with people and test whether or not this can be achieved. Furthermore, it is to investigate whether this can be done in a way that is less destructive.

I do love the spectacle of film, and the large scale of film productions, but I think that I have found the small scale, intimate filmmaker to be more conducive to my work style at the present moment in time (and very much more so to my investigations).

This course has allowed me the opportunity to learn a great deal about myself and my working style. It has opened me up and tested my limits in new ways. It has been a fantastic way to push myself and to learn more about myself and the way I look at life and understand the world in general.