In this post, I would like to write about this semester, the conclusion of my studying life in this studio with lovely professor Robin and many cute classmates.
Remember the first time, at the first class, Robin asked everyone why you chose this studio? At that time, I said because this is the last studio, I’m already year three and will graduate at the end of this year, I really want to learn something relative to the film. Also, lighting this kind of technical skill is what I want to know more about photography.
Now at the end of this semester, I felt unreal when I was standing at the exhibition. The whole atmosphere and people around there were telling me, hey, it’s all over, your last studio. Although it passed too fast, I do believe this studio gave me so many precious experience and knowledge, and memory.
From a total beginner to a guy knows the basement skill, I sigh my grown.
As I told Robin before, I wasn’t supposed to study Media this course, maybe something else. I was grown in a traditional and strict family, before 18 I saw rare films and TV series because my mom believes that kind of thing is something unprofessional, to be a businessman, a teacher, a doctor or some normal status occupations. However, destiny guides me to study it. In my university life, in this two and a half year, I spent my spare time to see many and many films and TV series and something relative to media. Day by day, I found that I fall down to this area, and it makes me believe that in my future, I do want to have a job in the communication area, media area.
However, with the time by, I recognized a reality that I won’t be a professional filmmaker, or cinemaphotographer or director something like it. I refused to accept this, I was believing one day I might get someone’s appreciation then the success comes. After the exhibition, I think a lot. I think it’s time to accept it. My talent isn’t as great as many of my classmates.
Sylvia and Jialu are my close friends, and honestly, I admire them. I admire their talent, I admire their great feeling of the film, I admire they have more time and opportunities to study and improve their interests, I admire they know what they want to be, and what they want to have. In this semester I spent many of my spare time to do a part-time job (front desk of a real estate company) which is totally unrelative to communication, to media. I felt guilty, felt angry at myself, I didn’t spend time and effort on what I really want to do.
Currently, I like photography, I like story, I like film, I like Yes, Minister and Yes PR minister (BBC TV Series, my love), I like to record what I see what I experience and what I think, I like to write film critics, I like life, I like to get in touch with people, with the society, with the cultures, I like history, I am dreaming to be a war reporter or free photographer, I like……
I still remember that edit suite, Robin said I did great and it’s right that I followed my heart to write the Unpopular Korean cinemaphotographer, not the well-known Wes Anderson. I was really happy that I got praised. I believe I will keep following my heart although that’s really tough to me as I need to overcome any problems, while the biggest one is myself.
All in all, please let me say
Really honored and happy to be one of your students.
Love you.