This week has thrust me into my own sense of self and left me questioning who I am and what I’m doing and why I’m here.

Last week we set 10 goals that we hope to achieve before completing our degree.

“Simply graduating” was at the top of my list. I desired nothing less than to see my parents brim with pride at the ceremony.

“Decide if Media is what I want to do with my life” was next. I wanted to be a journalist in Year 6 when I got an A+ on my reflective piece. I wanted to be a photographer in Year 8 when my brother placed his Canon EOS in my hands and taught me how to take photos. I wanted to be a Public Relations consultant when I was in Year 10 and I realised that companies had lost sight of how to advertise to their audiences. And now, in my dream university course, I’m questioning what I really want to do. Media has been the only constant for me, this is the field that I love, and hell, I’m good at this. This is all I’ve really been good at.

And a little further down the list:

“To be more confident about myself and my passion“.

All of this self-doubt is so overwhelming sometimes, I think it’s about time to refocus and discover whether this is where I need to be, and if so, accept the fact that I deserve to be here.