This week in The Scene, found us individually editing together the scenes that we previously filmed in groups the week before. While, I was generally satisfied that our film could be cohesively edited together in a way that was smooth and made sense, I was quite unsatisfied with the uninspired coverage of the action and it’s lack of any interesting characteristics which could possibly compel or challenge you when watching the scene.
However, in saying that I knew quite well that I was unhappy about all of these factors whilst filming, yet I was unwilling to say anything as I didn’t want to have to deal with the ego driven people that seem to take charge of the group every week seemingly unwilling to relinquish or share any bit of control.
While I know it’s just my basic human desire to want to blame everyone else in my group for my dissatisfaction with the final result, when it comes down to it I only have myself to blame. The fact that I have ended up with a scene that I don’t feel reflects any form of my artistry can only boil down to my completely defeatist attitude on the day of shooting as I did not try to interject with any framing or camera position decisions whatsoever even though I was displeased, or rather unchallenged, by them.
Epiphany of the week: I can’t blame anyone else for something not coming out in a way that I am happy with, if I went to no effort whatsoever to resolve these issues when I had the chance to. I have to try and speak up more and contribute during these filming exercises which I’ll only be able to do when I have a greater sense of self confidence with my craft. After all there is only so much you can fix in the edit.