The Giver and Receiver of Envy

The older I get, the less I seem phased about the apologetic platitudes surrounding one’s proclamation about being ‘a shameless self promoter’. It is a statement that is void because it cancels itself out. In essence, what you’re doing is saying sorry to someone for something that you haven’t done or said yet, but… you’re going to say it anyway. So… why waste oxygen?

The tacit disquiet that surrounds ‘blowing one’s own trumpet’ can plunge a person into an unnecessary state of self flagellation. Granted, nobody likes a show off but if you’re with peers who are intelligent and engaging human beings and you are offering an insight into something that others didn’t know before now then, why the hell should you hold back? All this is doing is chastening you for your hard work which intern may incite apathy.

According to Peter Kalos, a former acting coach of mine, (a worldly man who is not one to shy away from a name drop or ten) this fear of self promotion is a cultural thing. He says that it is rampant in Australasia, where as, in LA, to be coy about your achievements will only secure your plane ticket home.

For me, I have let so many opportunities slip away because I had thought that I would be judged if I vocalised my achievements… I believed that I would be  viewed as a ‘big shot’. See, I  too suffered… and still suffer envy triggered by the achievements of others, so the word ‘wanker’ slips into my vocabulary at times. But what I’ve come to realise is that, if by chance I am in the company of those who will judge me in this way, it’s the wrong company. If I get envious, I go against the grain and congratulate them. I’ll be miserable otherwise.

If I’m going to talk about myself nowadays, I reel off in internal monologue along the lines of, “Brace yourself, here it comes”.

I’ll only be sorry if I sell my self short.

Group Appellation

To avoid a messy cardinality issue whereby by a group is comprised of sets of individuals rather that one unified ideal, I thought it might be good to suggest that we give our group a name rather that referring to each member every time the collaboration project is brought up in conversation. We jammed on a few ideas but sort of lost momentum because, well, our Project 4  premise dominated but, as I had some rare time to think about a group appellation, I came up with the following anagrams composed of the letters in each of our names;

Anagrams for…

Sally Tim Daniel

Sly Tiled Animal

Alias Mind Telly

Yield’s Tin Llama

 

Sally Tim Dan

Mildly Satan

Tiny Small Ad

Sand Tam Lily

Mild Analyst

Malty Island

 

Sal Tim Dan

Mint Salad

Dial Ms Ant

Mind Atlas (though it is already a company)

Tam Island

Malty Island

Mail Stand

…But which one to choose!!

My Media Consumption = Enough % ?

Social media 1 hour per week 1.68% – being less engaged in social media like Facebook, Pintrest and Instagram than I once was maybe 2 years ago, a have resorted to these forms as more of a quick message check each morning to see what the world is saying.

TV 14 hours per week 23.5% – admittedly, my vice consists of The Simpsons, Futurama, Big Bang Theory, The Antiques Roadshow and The ABC News. I’m always trying to justify if my TV consumption as a relevant means to my growth and… hell yeah! It is helping me grow! It’s satire, it’s progressive, it’s full of fables and emphatic meaning. I am viewing my toons in a different light now that, I’ve started analysing narrative, semantics and the mise-en-scene.

Print 7 hours per week 11. 8% – which I worked out as being primarily research books for school and the MX on the train travelling home.

Cinema 2.33 per week 3.9% – I’m including screenings for cinema studies and perhaps 1 movie that I might catch each month at the Como.

Internet entertainment 7 hours per week 11.8% – this HBO series model has had me imitating Portlandia’s 2012 sketch where a couple obsessively view until their regard for a world outside becomes futile in their minds. Yep, that’s me and many of my friends and family! I blame Breaking Bad for my Dad’s dog’s weight gain.

All up, I’ve worked out that 52.3% of my life is taken up by media consumption and though it may seem like a lot, still, I don’t think I have enough.

Broadcast Purgatory

José van Dijck and Thomas Poell’s paper, Making Public Television Social? Public Service Broadcasting and the Challenges of Social Media (2015), holds significant pertinence for me as it is a central theme to one of our team’s P4 mission statements. Aside from the many notions that have been discussed in our group’s correspondence about our assigned topic, mediums, Marshall MsLuhan’s The Media is the Message being among many, José van Dijck and Thomas Poell’s discussion on evolving platforms in media bares semblance to one of our own themes of adapting to media change.

Alterations in societal thinking, be them good or bad, must be acknowledged.

It is admirable how the BBC stepped back from an editorial logic to embrace the inexorable progression of contemporary society to make public the thoughts of those fervent enough to contribute through Twitter and the likes but, was this social model masked with company propriety? According to José van Dijck and Thomas Poell, the filtering of realtime tweets and comments in programs like the BBC’s Up For Hire, may have been biassed, tipping the scale toward the beliefs of the production company officials and ostensibly the ‘button pressers’ in the control room. Such imbalances were investigated, ironed out through policy and placed into a new mantra. But if the BBC had rejected this, they would have undoubtably lost an integral social voice and gained a new place in broadcast purgatory.

For our team, and again I really want to get a name like Team Antimatter or something like that, we seemed to gravitate to this notion of adapting to change.

 

Closing In on the P4 Concept

We’re getting closer to establishing our P4 premise and I am really impressed with the ideas that have been workshopped so far. Sal and Tim worked like a machine today coming up with some great concepts.

Our project statement is yet to come though our goals are clear; to produce a high quality product in a medium that neither of us have explored… that’s in a nutshell.

We spoke a lot about the history of our set task, mediums, and frequently referenced Canadian intellectual Marshall McLuhan who coined the notion of the medium as the message.

Our team (we really need a name) created a shared folder in Google Drive and entered minutes, ideas, meeting times and meeting places that work best for us. We will need to convene outside the classroom though, should we not be able to attend these meetings for whatever reason, team (insert name) agreed that Skype would be our go to form for beating the drum. Aptly, the media that we may choose to communicate our ideas through will most certainly become the message.

Stay tuned!

Sal's aesthetic mind map creation.

Sal’s aesthetic mind map creation.

Protagonist Review

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Hazel Ocskó and Benedict Kazlauskas in All War is Deception (2013)

 

After reading the reading by Robert McKee, I was inspired to bring my focus back to my first theatre production. I had received much positive feedback about the story that I was telling however, there were criticisms that, most of which, were centered around the story’s development.

Forced to adhere to an encroaching deadline, I had to fast track the preproduction process and move things to the stage as soon as I could. Despite each character being thoroughly developed and explored, there were still gaps for the audience; I ascertained this from surveying those in the know, some audience members and the performers themselves.

I guess the reason I keep banging on about my play is that, I want to rewrite it and apply all that I’ve learned from Robert McKee, Lajos N. Egri, Konstantin Stanislavsky and Gilles Deleuze and bring these characters back to life. Because the majority of the play’s development was centred on character, I, and some of the performers, feel that we have become friends with our creations. I have empathy and sympathy for each character as they represent a part of us.

I believe that McKee’s idea of the switching protagonists could be applied, also, Bordwell and Thompson’s notion of establishing a primary narrator.

So, just to offer a synopsis in a nutshell; it is a tragedy where a box of toys come to life within in the mind a young boy, there is a box ballerina and 3 toy soldiers, each of which have their own character traits. The toys world is set in the time of the Second World War and the ballerina ends up being gunned down before the third soldier can profess his love, this is paralleled by the boys story whose dysfunctional family is falling apart. The protagonist model as it stands goes, A) ballerina B) young boy C) Soldier3. Long story short, it’s confusing… there is no one to root for. Should this production be revisited, the protagonist model with need to be strengthened by simplification, perhaps it begins with the ballerina until it is superseded by the boy.

www.allwarisdeception.com

 

*?'”””= 禪

Our guest speaker Amy Saunders reiterated some important tips on how we can utilise the library website. Amy suggested some meta data tactics  that can help refine a web search; for example, the use of the asterisk after the beginnings of a word like ‘narrate’, the search will reveal all words that incorporate ‘narrate’ within a larger extension, some examples could be, narrative, narrator, narration and the likes. Likewise, a question mark ‘?’ can be used as an ‘and/or’ if you were looking for a two word topic… and with two word topics in mind, you will need quotation makes ‘””‘ to group the two words together to form a singular meaning. As mundane as all this sounds, I have returned to a new state of digital syntax zen that I am eager to put into practice on further research.

We switched to the subject of collaboration which was presented by Rachel covering points like consistency, respect, support, responsibility, fairness, trust, autonomy and clarity. It was a highly encouraging motivation talk on what to expect for future projects.

The word ‘trust’ resonated with me the most. Any project that I have walked away from and said to my self, “Hey that went well and… whoop whoop I had fun!”, was conducted in an environment of like minded people sharing the same the vision with an underlying faith in each others ethos.

Flow and Heightened Consciousness

For this week’s reading, we explored the notion of collaboration and enabling conditions that contribute to flow and heightened consciousness within a group.

According to Keith Sawyer, there are 10 enabling conditions that contribute to flow (2007) and, as this notion resonated with me, I thought I’d investigate these 10 points in relation to my experiences.

How could these points be contextualised?

My preterition of specifics in these examples is very deliberate as certain issues may still be in contention.

1 The group’s goal – I had conceptualised a band in 2004 and had few people to work with. Through several audition sessions, I eventually decided on the troupe that I would later work with. However, it eventually became apartment that everyone had different goals and inevitably the group dissolved.

2 Close listening – Is total engagement, blocking out everything that is superfluous to the task. We do this in acting by spending prolonged periods of time before a performance engaging in sensory visualisation and relaxation.

3 Complete concentration –  In music, a progression change in a song can be led by an individual. Every member should be fully engrossed in their task however, it is important that they keep an ear out for the cues that lead the group into the next part of the progression.

4 Being in control – (Being granted autonomy) In a  workplace where I was granted permissions to recruit, train and coach staff autonomously resulted in an efficient and positive team. However, a friend of mine has experienced the opposite whereby the figure in charge micromanages tasks, putting their own mark on my friends work causing frustration and a blockage in the flow.

5 Blending Egos – Skyhooks front man Shirley Strachan said in the 1975 hit album, ‘Ego Is Not a Dirty Word’… and it’s true! Everybody has one but it is not necessarily about big hair, vanity and tight trousers; it is a force that drives humans toward a goal. So when egos blend with the right chemistry & balance, it can result in a powerful collaboration. Having worked in several scenarios where egos were miss-matched, I had become lucidly aware of the importance of ‘blend’; therefore, now when selecting people to work with, not only do I look for talent and poise but I also ensure there is a mutual respect for ideas.

6 Equal Participation – (Personal destruction of a group) An organisation that I had been a part of experienced issues where some staff, despite having the same ranking, were favoured over others giving a large portion less privileges intern causing friction, hindering overall flow and ultimately leading to attrition.

7 Familiarity – (With the craft and each other) Within my course at RMIT, I am slowly learning the language of how things work thus I am understanding how to engage better with fellow students and teachers and the like.

8 Communication – In my current position, I had made a pact with my boss that, in light of my varying situation with uni and family, I would keep him informed of any changes as they arise. This agreement is beneficial for both parties as my boss will be able to plan better and I feel that the company has my back so to speak.

9 Moving it forward – (Keep moving the conversation – listen closely – accept fully – extend and build) An esteemed friend of mine is a talented singer song writer who recently asked me to collaborate on one of her projects. I was of course much obliged and relished the opportunity. The elements to her success were quickly made apparent when, in a creative, brainstorming conversation, nothing was out of the realms of possibility. Any idea put forward by members of the group… no matter how absurd, would be considered. She would listen intensely and respond with, “Let’s go with that and see where it takes us”. The ideas flowed freely and the sessions were brimming with positive morale.

10 The potential for failure – (Prepare) In theatre, we thoroughly explore all the possible things that could go wrong; the most common would be forgetting one’s lines or cues. In this situation an actor should be trained to improvise as close to the intention of the script as possible; however, when I was singing with an orchestra in 2002, I became so nervous that I came in 4 bars too early; I was singing 4 bars in front of the orchestra! As it was highly unlikely that the orchestra was going to improvise around my mistake, I had to engage in 4 bars of humming, scatting and la-la-la-ing to allow for the orchestra to catch up.  I almost instantaneously became a better musician as I vowed to never let that happen again. This experience has definitely contributed to my heightened awareness. My failures have nearly always resulted in an essential learning experienced that are frequently referred to when working in a group setting.

 

Should Piet Mondrian’s Legacy Be Hailed As Something More Than Just a Building?

 

Piet Mondrian

Highrise apartment block in South Yarra (2015)

 

Piet Mondrian’s work catalogue has recently moved into the public domain as it is 70 years after his death. This building in South Yarra has snapped it up quicker than you can say ‘neoplasticism’.

Is this really the best way to celebrate such an inspirational artist?

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The original hipster Piet Mondrian 1899

 

Media Self Portrait Class Presentations

For Project Brief 2, our class has produced varied an interesting Media Self Portraits.

Some highlights for me were, Tim’s use of stop-motion, Aisha’s ethereal look at her literary inspirations like C.S. Lewis and Oscar Wilde, Siobhan’s creepy chime, Fabiana’s satirical subversion of vanity and dreamy violin, feeling like Genna’s housemate with her intentionally obscured song, Jen’s story of her short film, Alex’s creative use of the mise-en-scene where he cleverly initiated a conversation with himself, Justin’s reference to Bret Easton Ellis and Sally’s hilarious audio/visual editing.

I’m looking forward to hopefully working with these cats!

I should have prepared my presentation better because when it came to my turn to speak, I ploughed through my explanation like a bulldozer in an antique glass shop. I only mentioned about half of what I wanted to.

We finished off the class with a camera tech session getting accustomed to the resources that are at our disposal as an RMIT student.