Then suddenly a day I wake up to endless worries, the unknown ones. They’re just coming and coming without any signs.

Sometimes, I find myself wondering in the middle of the lecture what will I be. Will these abstract sophisticated philosophies and knowledge make me a better person, have a better life, make more money? I feel like I’m sinking in the hopeless silence of my own questions. Well, the fact is I don’t really understand these “philosophies” that the lecturers, the tutors are talking about. What is “technology determinism”? What is the concept of whatsoever? Maybe, maybe I’m just too ordinary to understand these sophisticated things. English is not my mother tongue language which makes it even harder for me.

I’m lost in this sea of ideas and thoughts. Just lost.