Honestly, this is it. And I can’t say I’m happy with it. I’m not a perfectionist, I’m not picky, but I wish that the final day of editing wasn’t left up to me, nor did I wish that I was left with 2 whole minutes to fill by myself I the only 4hrs. I don’t blame my group for this; I was absent in the beginning weeks due to personal reasons, though I think with a lot more care, and help, and teamwork we could’ve made something better. I really just am tired now, and never felt as though any of us connected, like the rest of the groups, did. I really did try to make it at least okay, and with the scarce amount of footage, I struggled. I really hated being one of the only ones who seemed to be able to go in out of class hours, it didn’t bother me, but it did bother me when some members would say they didn’t like the footage I put in but with no offer to help. I’m not complaining, I guess I learnt a lot. It really reminded of my first studio. I found that I seemed to be the only one focusing on where the shots went, and whether they made sense in the grand scene of the clip; when I came in to edit some days, the places where some of the cuts were, just seemed odd? Again, I do believe they all did the best they could, and due to all of our personal difficulties, it was hard to make something of Rage standard.

I guess looking back we could’ve improved in so many areas, we could’ve organised sets better and props could’ve been more well made, costuming could’ve been more well done. I feel bad saying all of these things because I know that the learning was what mattered (but if I could go back I would’ve changed these things). I feel a sense of relief and content knowing I don’t have to go into the editing suites and work alone for 4-6hrs, and I also feel relieved we actually got a video done. I know for a fact the video itself is not perfect, and I tried my best to make it that way with the small amount of time I had, two of the girls who said they were going to help me bailed last minute, due to the injury of course, not laziness, it was just bad luck in the end. Pure bad luck, everyone was either sick or injured, and I feel like this project really beat us to a pulp (not to be dramatic).

I guess if I learned a few things it would be; to form groups of people you will work well alongside, to work collaboratively and keep in contact, and that music video making isn’t really for me. I guess. We had some good times and we had some very bad times. I often felt so bad for the band members who would be rushed on set and receive an angry and harsh message from some of the other group members. It wasn’t a nice environment if I’m honest sometimes. I hope that we can fix up the video before showing them and re-upload a better version for them to present. I’d like to state the error message must have been my fault, I did not notice it prior to uploading it even though I watched it through, and I sent it to another member to check before I did so as well. It wasn’t until the next morning where I received a text asking me to go in and fix it. I have a job and I couldn’t fix it. Obviously, no one else was willing to, but I guess I’m sad it’s there at all.

Anyway, this was one of the most stressful and intense projects of my entire life, and I really did suffer through it, as did most of my group I won’t lie. I wish I was better organised in the beginning so I didn’t get the brunt of the worst bits at the end. I don’t even know if I can end this on a positive note because I feel as though I really did try to get this work done, I travelled across twon to shoot, I edited last minute and I don’t even know if what we have is good enough. I’m really just hoping to move on from this with a new experience on my shoulders.