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My bedroom: this is a place where I daydream.

From the couple of Miracle of Love postcards I panned to the left to reveal my painting (of seeing oneself in the mirror and seeing a different person) and tilted the camera up to reveal the streamers that I have hanging in my room using knitting needles to support it.

The simplistic “Miracle of Love” postcards tacked to my wall next to my bed is symbolic of what I went through in the past. It has taken me years to accept myself and love myself for who I am. 

I love to paint in my spare time – I tend paint with an abstract style – I find it rather healing and relaxing as I find that painting can have a positive calming effect on me. I used to paint abstract shapes and use bright colours to form a subject, for example a tree, this painting, even though it’s not up to the standard of being art gallery worthy, I do love looking at my artwork each day. 

The words underneath the artworks says:

“I beg of you… To have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now because you would not be able to live them and the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday, far away in the future, you will gradually without noticing it live your way to the answer…” – Unknown.

&

“We always see our worst selves. Our most valuable selves. We need someone else to get close enough to tell us we’re wrong, someone we trust.” – Unknown.

This clip is  a part of a place that defines me.

https://vimeo.com/90098572

Believe it not this video says so much about me. This video is about acceptance, I have learnt to accept myself for who I am and it’s taking a long time to get to where I am now. It’s amazing what a couple of years will do to you when you learn to accept yourself.

Fighting my inner demons was tough. I struggled with acceptance as a teenager. 

This video is about showing things that have that define me.